Destroyed

This week was pretty much a nuisance. It is not that I am not being grateful about what I get, but it is really harsh. Did I mentioned that my grade was just 'okay'? I guess I mentioned a couple post before, anyway that was not a good start for my life in this semester. That means I should do more effort to get my grade better for at least this year. Besides that, I am going to held an event which is tomorrow. Yep, tomorrow means first of February 2011. About the progress of the event, not quite enough. And what is worse is the fact that it would be held tomorrow. I am now still cutting those papers and hope that some fairy will help me doing all the works. You know, there was an old tale similar about what I hoped. The papercraft are just not independent enough to stand by its own will. It definitely need a kind-hearted human to make them live, unfortunately I am not 'geppetto' kind of person who would willing all his heart just to make a doll.

By the way, do you understand what I mean by the title? It is me, I am being destroyed and soon will crumble. Not sure whether good or bad. I might not be a good writer, but those series of events I mentioned above is some of the reason that I end up being destroyed. Just want to blabber around, I think the reason that effect my state-of-life lately is about the meeting. Meeting, oh shoot I lost my focus on what I want to write. Just remember something, promise must be kept but you should not angry if someone broke the promise because it is not your area of control anymore. Keep calm, may Allah bless you.

Promise Must Be Kept

Well, I promised you something. But inspiration is hard to find anywhere these days, or it might be just me? Be patient, I will write something interesting.

This is What I promised

Sorry if you consider me a lier, if you think this post sucks then it is. After having some bad days with GPA, LimeLight, and of course Carica, finally today was pretty much good. Watching movies with friends, having sushi, having frozen yogurt, and family dinner was awesome. It is truly awesome. Szechuan food with no pork and no lard taste better much than I expected, though I only expect its taste from reading a not so great manga called "Cooking Master Boy". After all, GPA is not everything. There is no need to be down even for a second, there are much more things to appreciate in this world. Do you believe it? I do. There still be 7 semester to repair my not-that-bad CGPA. Furthermore, I do not know what's best for me but Allah knows. Ah, Forgot to mention, these are all just process. For what? I hope for Jannah, the so called and promised heaven for those who have been faithful and fear only to Allah. Let's see what can I do every second I have after this, I wish for something beneficial. The way I write this post is just so messy, I do not expect you to understand though. Cheers, have a great life.

p.s: I end the night with a very good chat, at least for my feeling . But I guess it will not be a good start for tomorrow.

Definitely Not My Last Will

I promise that I will write a good post after I got my exam result, whatever the result is. Actually, I am kind of bored because of waiting too long for the exam result. You don't get the feeling of waiting anymore. A little bit numb, but of course with some hope. Some people associates exam with death. Why is that so? As I mentioned earlier on a couple post ago, human being is in a big exam so-called life created by Allah. The other thing is the fact that many student studied in an almost dying like condition, well it is just an analogy but somewhat true. Even if i am destroyed, I can not be defeated (quotes from the old man and the sea from a lot of post ago with enormous amount of modification, by the way I really love the book). I will keep writing, so keep reading.

Writing Should be Enlightening

My first writing in this new year according to Gregorian calendar. Well I do not really celebrate new year, actually I really do not, but it is always fun to change your calendar and planning what you are going to do for this coming year. For myself, I want to read more, write more, speak more, work more and chat less. Why read, write, speak and work? Essentially, everything considered as NOT fooling around is just a combination of things that I want to do more this year. The reason I put more things to do more than things to do less even though we know that a year consist only 365 and a quarter days is because of chatting takes much more portion of my life than the other four, and indeed it makes me really not productive.

Another thing is, since tumblr is getting more and more popular, people lost their feeling about blogs. Yep, writing people's thought is much simpler using tumblr. These days, people consider blogs more about a place for a more 'proper' writing not just as media to tell your feeling. Isn't it interesting? I think so. Lately, many famous blogger (more specifically Indonesian) do not put their brain on their writing. They just bluff around telling their feeling with a cheesy manner just to make them famous. You know, you can be fun and smart in the same time, not sacrificing one or another. A late 80's Indonesian writer named Hilman (one of my favorite novel writer) made many great teenage novels (definitely unlike twilight). Written in a fun yet adequate manner of writing like what a good literature should be.

My conclusion is, keep writing. I mean, keep writing properly. People would always like to read a good writing neatly written. I guess I am running out of idea right now, then I could right no more. Anyway, I am waiting for my GPA result to come. Hope it will be a satisfaction for my pretty high standard. Well, Allah knows better than me. Cheers!!