Hiya everyone,
About one year after I've graduated from one of the biggest ordeal in my life (yet). So has life been awesome? Not really. But not bad either. The further I go from that moment, the more I can see the bigger picture. Earth is not flat after all.
The past five years have been quite a journey. It works for me the way teenage years work for most people. Your identities and believes got crushed and must be rebuilt again. A phenomenon that I did not experience back when I was reading the subject in the counseling (BK bahasa Inggrisnya apaan sih lol) textbook. And the reason why I prefer to express identity and believe in plurals because they are clearly not singular. It can be who you associated yourselves with, what matters to you, your definition of success, or can be even simpler such as your favorite musician. The change, for some people, could encompass even bigger magnitude, gender and religion maybe?
It's true, one method to see fast changes on our personal selves would be moving out of our comfort zone. The changes is more apparent when you are younger usually, when you are still able to be molded. Now that you wish you can change to be the way you want, but it's not that easy to behave the way we want to behave; just like it's no longer easy to touch your toes without bending your legs (ouch). Many experiences have passed, and many more is still waiting. Surely there are regrets and satisfaction, but I think I have learnt how to be grateful.
It wasn't easy to console yourself with failure, but this past one year has helped me to do that. I realize that I don't have so much youth anymore and I need to get going. I wish I can look back at this article and say "You've done well Al!"
If you ever feel worthless, remember that there are people who still think that the earth is as flat as this pancake.
Courtesy image to National Pancake Week website.
