Lama Tidak Curhat

Cukup lama sih memang tidak curhat, hidup rasanya belum pernah sesibuk ini (dan menariknya tiap saat saya selalu merasa tidak pernah sesibuk ini). Dan ingin ganti template blog yang idenya muncul tiba-tiba pada saat lecture, menarik kan? Sabar sedikit deh, semoga saya bisa come up dengan sesuatu yang menarik.

Collapsed

I think some of the most interesting phenomenon of quantum mechanics is the collapse of wave function. Imagine that our mind as an electron described in a wave function, traveling freely around certain regions, or even flows until infinity with lower probability. It must be centered mostly at certain places and it is most probable to see what is in your mind around that region, however there is still Heisenberg Uncertainty Principle that makes it more uncertain.

Let's say that you make a measurement (or in this case as a guess/try) by focusing your mind and start doing on certain thing. And you find the electron (assume that this is your interest that actually correspond to your mind, heart and physical ability, and it does not need to be located in the most probable area some medical student might find her "electron" around entertainment area and it does not contradicts the law) it means that he/she will find the that is the place that the "electron" should belong. And if you have find the "electron" there and you make another measurement right after you find the electron, you must also find the electron in the same place. And hence the wave function collapsed, it will only remains a delta function in that specific places. And his/her passion and dream are focused there, to the infinity.

Quantum mechanics is always philosophical, yes it is. And I hope all of us can find the "electron" and makes the probability to be 1. And I am in the way on collapsing my wave function.

#Read Quantum Mechanics or simply  Wave Function on Wikipedia might helps.

Terasing

Terasa kok, bahwa blogspot makin sepi. Blog saya juga. Which is good or bad? Kita sendiri yang menentukan. Saya pribadi sih karena memang hanya pingin menulis apa adanya merasa begitu-begitu saja. Tapi diam-diam kalau ada satu comment dari manusia macam apapun pasti senang-senang saja. Agak munafik sih, tapi berhubung definisi munafik jauh dari yang satu itu bukan masalah.

Ngomong-ngomong kehidupan, lagi super hectic. Rasanya kata hectic sangat sering dipakai, terlalu sering malah. Berhubung saya sedikit menganut budaya hipster jadinya saya merasa menggunakan kata-kata tersebut sebelum populer dipakai oleh manusia Indonesia. Yang namanya midterm test, pe-er, lab report maupun tugas keorganisasian banyaknya SEJUBEL. Yeah, SEJUBEL. Dan rasanya dunia ini tidak begitu akrab dan ramah dalam membantu kita kepada kesuksesan selain teman dekat kita. Apa karena itu kita harus introspeksi? Bisa jadi.

Ngomong-ngomong lagi, daripada tulisan lengthy macam ini. Gambar-gambar kiyut di tumblr jauh lebih ngetren akhir-akhir ini. Indeed.

Too Philosophical Too Answer

I do not really consider these circumstance to be harsh. There are just too many questions that I could not answer right now. I would blame all the capitalist who try to improve our welfare needs by injecting growth hormone to all those chicken and cattle. As I could remember the text on my elementary school book, teenagers is the age when you questions all things about life. And now, in my late teenage years I am questioning things here and there. I should have done it before, at least three years ago and not now. That is why I blame those people, for making something wrong in my hormonal system. By the way, do not take all my writing so seriously. Imagine that you are having a chat with a very random person while reading it, indeed I am.

When you choose to read an article on this blog, it does mean that you have chosen to open the box. Yes, the box which lies a cat in it's life-death duality. Not very emotional, but this is not my best state of my life and yes I have become a... I do not know what to say. If you are a Muslim then you know what kind of people whose today's quality is less than yesterday's. Many things to develop yet have not found the answer. And true that human being do not know what is good and what is bad for themselves. Then who knows what is good and what is bad? I suppose you know what is the answer. Shoot, this is the most abstract abstract I have made. Hope this post is beneficial and you could understand a glimpse more about me (why do you need to know about me after all haha).

Equilibria

People change! Tampaknya frase tersebut sudah digunakan di tulisan-tulisan tahun 90-an di Indonesia. Tapi fakta bahwa frase terebut tetap punya arti yang luar biasa penting tidak bisa dipungkiri lagi. Lagipula pada dasarnya semua hal berubah, manusia juga.

Mungkin selama ini kita terlalu banyak berinteraksi dengan diri kita sendiri, sampai-sampai kita lupa dengan bagaimana kita sendiri telah berubah. Cukup relatif memang perubahan yang terjadi berapa banyak, tergantung juga diambil acuan tahun berapa. Ya kalau acuannya dari umur lima tahun sampai lima belas tahun sih manusia berubahnya luar biasa tidak ketulungan, bentuknya berubah, mulai ngelawan orang tua, mulai males-malesan, dan lain sebagainya. Tentu saja tidak semua perubahan yang kita alami buruk, atau mungkin malah secara umum perubahan yang kita alami baik. Banyak orang yang baru jadi alim pada saat dewasa, atau jadi percaya diri setelah melewati ini dan itu.

Saya sendiri, berubah.

Tidak bilang lebih baik atau lebih buruk. Hanya bilang berubah. Bahkan dalam satu tahun ini. Ingat betul saya bahwa dulu saya manusia yang ingin mengejar excellency di satu bidang spesifik. Dengan cita-cita yang luar biasa jelas. Jadi scientist  di bidang fisika makanya saya kuliah fisika. Setelah masuk dunia kuliah, tetap merasa itu hal yang paling feasible sih, tapi rasanya dunia terlihat lebih luas daripada sebelumnya. Efek sampingya? Hidup relatively lebih tidak fokus, tapi begitu banyak bidang yang "setidaknya" saya bisa melakukannya. Intinya jadi labil cita-cita dan galau cinta *apadeh*.

Ada yang bilang perubahan terjadi karena adanya ketidakseimbangan. Misal, orang berubah jadi rajin dari pemalas karena dia melihat adanya ketidakseimbangan antara nilai yang dia dapat dengan harapannya. Atau bahkan revolusi prancis juga terjadi karena rakyat merasa adanya ketidakseimbangan dengan pemerintahnya. Equilibrium tidak hanya ada satu yang pasti, banyak titik-titik lainnya dimana orang bisa mencapai keseimbangannya. Panjang juga post kali ini, karena ngantuk mari kita sudahi bincang-bincangnya kali ini.

La Petite Reunion

I feel like meeting some people, whom I often talked with in the past. And definitely not anymore, simply because we do not meet that often these days. No need to have a lengthy conversation, a simple tea break conversation will do. And hey, I have just met some of them!

But they are just in my dream anyway.

Literally dream, do not think it as my goal or whatever. I really wonder what happen to them right now?

Nyam nyam nyam..

Feel like munching something, preferably some kind of troubles. Why troubles? Because they will disappear after you much them. Quite absurd isn't it? It is indeed.