Hontou ni

Hi everyone, I only got one exam left which is tomorrow and I do not feel like preparing it really well because I do not know how. I think I am going to make a legal cheat sheet (please do not think that I am a cheater), it suppose to be the most effective way to study all the chapters. If my life would be described as a normalized finite length wave function, I think right now is approximately about where the probability density comes to near zero. What does it mean? I do not know it either. It feels like molding a clay together for couple of years without even trying to make it a china. What am I blabbering about? Whatever, wish me for my remaining exam.

Sincerely

Greetings Human

I suppose that will be the first word all alien would say when they reach our atmosphere. There is nothing actually, I just want to greet fellow blogger who still keep writing in their own lonely blog. Well, some recent update might be interesting so I will try writing it in an interesting way.

1. My birthday

Happy birthday to me! I am not really happy though, because I do not really celebrate birthday. So nothing was really special. But the most fun about birthday is receiving greetings from everything you love. Yep, I mention everything instead of everyone. Because things that makes you happy not only come from other person, but also the situation and everything. I am grateful that I still have friends who would wanted to spend his time for buying me cake even if it was on exam period. Also so much gratitude to my family, I think any word or anything I could give will not be enough to 'pay' all their effort to make me the best person I can be. Thank you everyone!!

2. Exam

Today is my first out of five exam. It still approximately 3 hours from now, and I did not feel any anxiety right before I write this sentence, unfortunately now I feel it. I suppose my grade this semester would be better than the last semester since I am more familiar with the subject. I think I have done all my best to prepare for the exam, but then my friend have done all their 'bestest' to prepare. Right now I have no comment about that, let God's 'hand' decide. Human being can only do their best.

Hey, is this post feels more blog-ish than another post on this schrodinger's cat? Anyway, merry exam for those who celebrate . Wish everyone do and get their best result! Cheers.

My Oldself

Hi everyone, I will be having exam soon. My first paper is just only 10 days left and I am so not ready comparing the previous semester. Last semester, I did my study very well. I went to bench every night up until 01:00 am, did my tutorial weekly, attended most of the lectures and tutorials, etc. However, my grades were not good enough. I wonder if I put some (a lot actually) 'adrenaline' around this exam period (which I did not feel any last semester) my grades will be better? Hope so, I expect a significant improvement of my grade this semester.

By the way, I want to start doing routine tahajjud again. Yep, like what I did back in junior high school. Back then, I slept around 08:00 pm every night and woke up around 04:00 am every morning. Then I will do tahajjud and study afterwards until approximately 05:30 or 05:45. Now, look at my condition. I slept after midnight, due to ineffective studying in those bench. Then I will try my best to wake up at six but sometimes I can even wake up at seven. And you do know what it means right? I missed shubuh prayer on time. And it is not just once (but can not considered often of course). I think the junior high school me will be shamed to have a future just like me now. I was focussed, somewhat spiritual, determined, and so on. But I don't think it is late to fix me. Have you tried fixing yourself? How was that, was it hard? I guess so.

Do you think this post is very 'me' oriented? Whatever, I am writing for myself though. See you in a better condition for both of us!

Exhaust Fan

Do you know why do they are called exhaust fan? I do not know, but I am simply exhausted now. That's it. I heard that prayer is the strength of believers, I guess that might work if I do not guess so then it is not my strength. Anyway, I am exhausted as I mentioned 3 sentences earlier.

Cheers

I am pretty sure that I have not posted anything for pretty long time. Well, I have just had a bad case of diarrhea last week. Yep, the whole week. Let me share you something then :

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-5l9gm4ymLw

I hope it helps (WHY!?). Anyway, life has been not as busy as before. It is because I planned so. Let me ask you something, at what time the latest class do you have? Mine is until seven pm. But since some holiday, they need to extend it up to 7:30. I do not think that normal university student would have class that 'late'. Then imagine at what time I could go back to my room, still studying and doing some assignments. Do not forget that I also joined a lot of CCA (that is my problem though). I think I really need some spiritual and academic refreshment, anyhow as long it increases my taqwa and GPA. See ya then.

Quantum

First of all, I want to say sorry for acting like geek person by writing the header of the blog in such way. And now, I have learned the very glimpse of quantum mechanics which contain schrodinger equation. I suddenly realized that I know nothing yet I posted such words. By the way, I found something interesting while learning quantum mechanics. Some people proposed that space-time are discrete, and your life is actually sum of your action in every particular quanta of space-time. So there is no way for any second in your life does not important, they are however part of your life.

The problem is, how you created your space-time? Is it by filling them with bad things? Or you make every part of your life fruitful and beneficial? For me, I have not even lived for 18 years. But I think I made too many regrettable action. One is because not doing something, the other is because doing something else. I hope this writing can fill my space-time in a good manner, that won't give me any problem in judgement day. Well, I feel so miserable right now with some quizzes and assignment to be done soon. So, what's next?

(Not So) Quick Update

Dear readers,

It has been ages since I left this blog untouched. Okay, it might not be ages but long enough for me. Writing has been pretty much interesting and I also have a lot of thing I want to write. Unfortunately, I am not someone who is good at communicating my thought to others and thus I do not have as much time as couple of weeks ago.

Am I busy? I think so. Right now I have three commitments of subcommittee and two commitments as main committee and I guess there are still some others which I put less priority or I forget now. I thought making myself busy will prevent me from doing unnecessary things, but unnecessary things keep coming to you regardless your free time. Hope that my time be more productive. After taking course of mastering communication, I realized that this writing is so 'me' oriented. Not readers oriented. This is my personal blog though, but making something more global and enjoyable is much better I guess.

I have just started one of my most interesting career in my university life, but I feel it will end soon, very soon. Time goes faster if you quantized them, and we do quantizing time here at NTU. Life is divided by 13 weeks + one recess week and approximately three weeks of exam periods makes it seems shorter. I am still on the move of chasing images of two people who inspire me a lot. But I realize, I need to make my own path. Yep, myself. They are just image anyway, having my true identity would be nice in order to survive in this world and for the hereafter. Furthermore, having advice from senior who knows you pretty well is always interesting. She said that I need to have my own 'charisma' and she said something about 'be more manly'. I guess people does not consider me a 'man', still a young 'boy'.

Hmm, being 'galau' and 'labil' (check for Indonesian urban dictionary) does not bring anyone anywhere. However, I do not consider this as 'galau' and 'labil'. Just some splash of my thought. Happy anniversary everyone, for having great life which is unique and interesting in different way. I guess I should stop now, my dad does not really like my habits of waking up too late.

Cheers,

arutaki with some melancholy