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So  the apartment that my family lives in is located in rather city central. We got it for a very affordable price for its proximity to basically anywhere in Central Jakarta. The secret? When we decided to move there, not all the units were individual apartment units. Some were the typical hotel for nightly rental. Despite having legit families living there, the hotel was popular as place to have one night stand affair and Middle Eastern tourists having 'contract marriage'. I lived there for about two years before I went to study overseas, but all rooms have basically transformed into normal apartment for families and long term tenant now. There are still Middle Eastern tourists, but they are much more family-oriented these days. Also I have never seen drunk taxi passenger arguing over fare while drunk whenever I go for dawn prayer anymore. It was a crazy place.

Perhaps I have been living in Noa Dogenzaka afterall.

Who was your favorite Naruto character?

So my younger self cried a lot. I can count at least once a day back in elementary school. The record was something like 5-6 times on a day if I am not mistaken. I stopped crying on daily basis in my middle school. So one day, two close friend of mine 'reported' me to the counselling room for being a crybaby and they wanted to see me change into the better person (how nice of them!). And voila, I stopped crying on daily basis. It did have a cost, because for some reason I thought those cynic-ass manga character are cool and I wanted to be like them. So the crying stopped, but I wish I were kinder to everyone.

Now I do cry, not once a day obviously.I heard it's healthy occasionally.

(Yeah, Shikamaru Nara was my favorite character)

On Deliberate Practice

"I may be weird but I am at least I am not boring", I said this to a group of friend in my excuse of doing weird stuffs. I am not confident enough to say that I *AM* interesting, but sure I have always been well opinionated in many things to justify that I *AM* not boring. But you know what is the problem? The things I think as my qualities are tacit. Whenever I consciously think about my opinion on some stuffs explicitly I couldn't conclude if I really have a strong opinion on that. It's completely different when I have a conversation naturally and spouting all my nonsense. Maybe just like everything, having good opinion requires practice.

As for 2019, I want to be better at managing my finances. Amen to that.

Ramadan Kareem

Hello blog, been almost a year.

I don't think I am an emotional person in real life. Of course I shed tears watching/reading some melodrama materials, but angry? Not so much.

Ramadan is beyond abstaining from food and drink. I wonder how I can grow personally this year.

Happy Ramadan!

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Not trying to be poetic but I really don't know a good title to go with this short post.

It is somewhat comforting knowing that some people care about certain aspects of your life more than yourself. I was surprised to heard that there are people who thinks highly of me more than I, a rather prideful being, think about myself. Some other genuinely wished the best for me. Some friends want me to attend their wedding parties. There are also those who is always eager to meet me whenever I am in town. I don't consider myself as being needy, but I am glad that my presence brings a little goodness. I have yet to do thorough analysis on whether my overall presence has positive impacts to other though. Despite the world that constantly looks gloom, are these enough reason to enjoy living? I'd like to think it is.

Because the sky is always more beautiful in Japan

If I have to describe this year with one word, reflective would be the word so far. Not much thing happened, but I've been able to think and contemplate a lot. Which not in anyway less important. So what's next? Translating my thoughts into action I suppose. Not going to be easy, especially after the past not so simple 6 to 7 years. Of course there are plenty of things I could ask more, but right now I am grateful.

I really am.

Somewhat.

So my wish this year is to be granted a just mind accompanied with willpower.

And the sky looks like this these days:

Happy Golden Week.

Catatan (belum) Akhir Tahun

If you don't believe in anything, I don't understand why would you be worried about anything. Or maybe my initial assumption about a person who does not believe in anything was wrong. It takes as much belief to not belief in anything just like someone who believes in something. Probably.

Maybe I should stop writing the Gate 7 style.